Horrible sleep, horrible day. ):
looks like its going to be a long week + outfield + live firing..  (horrible week)

back to camp in an hour. ): ):

i'm feeling so depressed. my goodness.

lovesick fool.

Hmm, very strange, but i feel like keeping a journal again. So many thoughts in my mind.
I just wonder if i can update it from my handphone in camp. it'll be the coolest if i can. i'll have to try it soon..

Life has been so weird for me. sometimes i just dont know what to think anymore. i've grown so indifferent to various situations around me, one would think i've become a slacker. not the case though. i think it just hurts less by not caring. *shrugs*

one thing i am not proud of is neglecting God.

PRAYER

Now when was the last time i did that?

Take time to pray

I got up early one morning,
And rushed right into the day;
I had so much to accomplish,
I didn’t have time to pray.

Troubles just tumbled about me,
And heavier came each task.
"Why doesn’t God help me?" I wondered.

He answered, "You didn’t ask."

I tried to come into God’s presence;
I used all my keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided,
"Why, child, you didn’t knock."

I wanted to see joy and beauty,
But the day toiled on gray and bleak.
I wondered why God didn’t show me.
He said, "You didn’t seek."

I woke up early this morning,
And paused before entering the day.
I had so much to accomplish
That I had to take time to pray.


I need to pray more.

"God, please teach me how to pray again. Amen."

And he said to them, “Which of you who has a friend will go to him at midnight and say to him, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves, for a friend of mine has arrived on a journey, and I have nothing to set before him’; and he will answer from within, ‘Do not bother me; the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed. I cannot get up and give you anything’? I tell you, though he will not get up and give him anything because he is his friend, yet because of his impudence he will rise and give him whatever he needs. And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent; or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

—Luke 11:2-13}}}}


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ok, on another note, let me try posting some pictures here.

*EPICFAIL*

nevermind. next time.. it's off to bed soon. physio tmr. (for those who dont know, i injured my back.)
then its another *sad* week in camp.



effectively, this is only somewhere in March for me;


2 days off in a week x (4 weeks in a month) = 8 days a month off

round off to 10 days a month because i did not count friday nights (something like a semi off)

10 days x 10 months = 100days.

100 days = 3 months 10 days approx.

sooooo, its around somewhere in March. ^^


ugh. pardon my nonsense :/
bye.